The Longest Shortest Time

Misconceptions

People sometimes ask me if I would recommend my podcast to pregnant women and I really struggle with my answer. On the one hand, there are some things I wish I had understood better before giving birth. On the other, I’d heard plenty of horror stories about childbirth and they would either terrify me or […]

The Worry Box Project

At least once a day someone tells me, “Oh, your daughter looks just like you!” Which is funny because toward the end of my pregnancy I’d have this recurring dream that she’d be born and she’d look exactly like my mother-in-law. And nobody would know she was mine. The dreams and anxieties we have about […]

EPISODE #10: My Newborn, the A**hole

My friend Kristin and I reminisce over our frequent angsty phone calls after our daughters were born. And she reveals something to me she’s never told me before.

It’s Going to Be a Nightmare

Actress Tilda Swinton on early parenthood, in an AP article about her new film We Need to Talk About Kevin, based on the book of the same title. “I remember very soon after giving birth realizing that my imagination had taken on a kind of brutal capacity that it had never had before,” said Swinton, […]

Mercy, Mercy, Mercy

Yesterday I interviewed Kate Bowman-Johnston, who recently wrote an article on LST for Catapult magazine. In the article she mentions a song from her childbirth mix that made her cry often after her daughter Adelle was born. It reminded me of the mix that I’d made for Sasha’s arrival. Before things went awry, I got […]

EPISODE #8: Would’ve Been the Mean Mommy

An unexpected tragedy turns a mean mommy into a laid back one.

EPISODE #7: Nurse, Get the Handcuffs

Thirty-four years after having me, my mom breaks down for the first time over not being able to breastfeed me.

How Were You Fed?

Here’s what I knew about myself as a newborn before I became a mom: I weighed four-and-a-half pounds (though I wasn’t a preemie); my parents took me from the hospital against doctors’ orders, before I had gained the required amount of weight to leave; and I had shockingly orange hair (I come from two brunettes). […]